A Killed Darling

I’m rewriting some stuff and I came upon the following sentence in one of my notebooks.

A stabiliser was as of her sight of the beacon dissolving in her undercurrents.

It took me about five minutes of staring and asking my wife for help to realize what the hell it actually meant, but once I understood that I kinda liked it. (A mood-stabiliser had, since the moment she saw the bright light, been active in her bloodstream.) Obviously it can’t stay in the story, since it is incomprehensible even with full context, but I didn’t want to let it go to waste so here it is. Thanks, voidful mass of silent readers.