The first drink is to forget; the second is to remember again. The third drink is to focus on what’s here and now. A fourth drink – a fifth? – is to cancel out the last few drinks and start afresh. The first drink, the first drink is to sever all the nerves in order to go numb; the second is to lose vision and to blacken out the room and really listen for the first time. The next drink is to hear the bartender’s bad heart beat. The eighth drink is a test of courage, the ninth a test of faith.